Oh my goodness. I've been packing some stuff up for an upcoming move (more details later), and I found an old journal of mine. I'd tell you what kind of a journaler I am, but I'll just let my newly-turned-13-year-old self tell you (I'll try to keep to what is actually written, and in this font).
Monday, February 2, 1998
Dear Journal,
Hi, I guess. I'd guess I should tell you what a horrible journal keeper I am. Usually, I won't write for months (so don't be surprized). Anyways, I have to tell all of my troubles to somebody, so I'd guess I'll just write them. Lately, I have just been wondering if I should be mad at my friends or if I'm just taking things too seriously. I don't want people to walk all over me, but I don't want to be a party pooper. I just wish (like everybody else) that somehow I would be cool and that my friends would look up to me. This kind of attitude is probably what has put me in a bad mood. I also hope that everybody doesn't think that I'm a nerd. I don't have to be all that popular, but I just want people to respect me. Oh well, I've got to go to bed now. Bye.
Lisa Reeder
or
Beast
P.S. Beast is my nickname.
Lest you be confused, that P.S. was in the actual journal entry. Sad though, huh? Yes, that's me. So I spend a couple days talking about "fine" guys and my annoying friends, and then the next entry is in 2004, when I'm at BYU. Yeah. I know. But the worst thing is that it's not because I wanted to :) I had a Book of Mormon teacher who required us to study our scriptures for 30 minutes a day, and we were also required to write in a spiritual journal every day. But, sometimes I wrote about things that were going on in my life, and I found this entry:
1/31/04
Today could easily be the best day I've ever had. It's my birthday, and as it turns out, birthdays rock in the BYU dorms! My friend Jacobo gave me a cake last night, Johanna gave me Swedish fish this morning, my roommate made signs for me and hung them up on the wall, my RA made me a card--it was just awesome. Later on in the night I went out to dinner with Matt and Sariah, Cami, Shaun, Roy, Kira, and my "cuz" Chris. Chris planned the whole thing and it was super awesome. Then he got me a cheesecake and we ate it in my lobby, after they attacked me with silly string. But these aren't even the greatest part of my day. Today I auditioned for BYU's School of Music and it was awesome! Of course I could've done better, but I kept my nerves under control (with the help of my Music Psychology class and the encouragement of my private teacher). They also said extremely encouraging things like "figuring out" why I wasn't already in the School of Music and complimenting me on my ACT score and my orchestra member skills and just everything. It was great. But THEN, when we were on our way to the Macaroni Grill, Bro. Belknap called me on my cell phone and informed me that they were going to recommend me for the School of Music!!! I almost had a cow! I have no idea why he decided to call me, but I am so incredibly grateful, and I can't think of a better birthday gift! It still seems like it didn't really happen. I am actually in the School of Music! Incredible! It doesn't seem real. It's just incredible that he called me. I couldn't make up a better story. So that was my amazing wonderful day. Onto scriptural things...
And then there were days that I saved my scripture study for right before bed, and that was the semester I started dating John, and yeah, I was tired. Sometimes there were funny things written. For example:
3/4/04
"[Quoting a scripture in Helaman]...yea, even to the purifying and the sanctification of their hearts which sanctification cometh because of their yielding their hearts unto God."--That's amazing, itself. I can't think of a better thing to do but I feel like P.E. 1/2 credit hour class was worth it.
What? WHAT??? Who knows, but I was obviously asleep at the time. And this time I was obviously just desperate to write something so that I could count it for my class:
3/28/04
(written extremely sloppily, pretty much to the point of unintelligibility)
contention of devil= not healthy
So, now you know. Not healthy. Don't do it.
And, on a positive note, John actually wrote in this journal at one point. I was taking notes during General Conference (on 4/3/04, for the record), and he wrote this:
First Time Watching Conference with John!
and,
John ama Lisa para sempre e ele vai ficar no lado dela para sempre. Eles vao ficar feliz para sempre.
Translated: John loves Lisa forever and he will stay by her side forever. They will be happy forever.
Awwww... :)
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